That is how I feel about myself today. I am the purple one, btw
Remember my post this morning about the cakes and brownies and cookies, etc that would be at work? Well, I think I self-destructed this morning when I left my lunch at home on the island. I literally panicked. So I get to work and decide "Okay, I will get the protein pack from the lunch lady today." Or not. She didn't have any. Really?? Every other day she has no less than 4 but not today. So I settled for a turkey sandwich that I ate as 2 meals sans bread.
Well, then came the treats. The cupcakes were mini cupcakes and I ate 1/4 of one and gave the rest to my PIC (aka the evil b*tch who made said goodies). I just wanted to lick the dark chocolate off of the entire thing though. Yuuummmmmmmm. But where I really relapsed was with the cake. Picture this, german chocolate cake with sweet condenced milk and chocolate poured on top, covered in Cool Whip & Health bar. Are you freaking kidding me?! I had a tiny piece and it was almost orgasmic after not having any amount of sugar in 4 weeks. Now, having said that, I CRASHED about 15 min after eating it. I wanted to crawl under my desk and sleep. Crazy. Never experienced that before. I think my blood was made up of pure glucose before my surgery. I hated the feeling. I don't want to experience it again. I hereby pledge to be sugar-free (but still as sweet) for as long as I can possibly handle it. :-)