Sunday, January 29, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
I have been having some tummy issues and so my husband hasn't gotten much love from me the past few days. This morning I was getting ready for work and he came to hug me. He wrapped his arms all the way around me and had my sides in his hands (even after his arms were crisscrossed behind my back). I don't recall him ever being able to do that, so that was huge for me this morning....and it felt good to be held by him like that for so long :-)
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I know I shouldn't be so excited to post something about that since it should be a daily occurrence, but it isn't. Honestly? I have not worked out regularly in over 3 months. I will walk on my mom's treadmill once or twice a week but that is about it....and after looking in the mirror this morning I see that the serious need for gym time is HERE!! I am hanging. Like, literally. My boobs hang, my tummy hangs and now my ass is even starting to hang. I'm not hangin' tough here. I feel frumpy and not so pretty naked.
So lay it on me....what are your favorite exercises and what helped you when you started to see that you were starting to swing low?? I need suggestions, stat!!! Need to create a workout regimen this weekend.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I have blogged about Dan before. He is the author of DanielMeyerBlog.com and a dear friend of my husband and I. He is fighting the battle of his life now that he is out of the Air Force. Dan was medically discharged after only 6 years of service. He was exposed to the toxic burn pits overseas in Iraq & Afghanistan and is now wheelchair bound and on oxygen 24/7. He is creating a non-profit organization for disabled vets and wants to do as much good as he can. He and his wife are amazing and so very strong. I am so happy for them to have this opportunity to go to Washington D.C. and speak to our leaders about his cause. He is going to make some incredible connections and I know they will be able to move forward with their amazing cause!! Today he was featured in the Las Vegas Review Journal AND on the front page of his hometown paper the Toledo Blade.
Please take a few minutes to read Dan's blog and share him on yours as well. It would be greatly appreciated by all, and you never know the difference you could make for someone else.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
I'm smiling, as usual. Was I happy? Of course I was! But to look back I just cringe that I did that to myself.
This morning we were at the store and I wanted to eat everything in sight...not that I can, but I wanted to. Something crazy came over me when we were going through the frozen food aisle. When we passed the pies I grabbed a coconut cream pie and a cheesecake. Then when we came to the ice cream, I saw the Girl Scout cookie flavors and grabbed a Samoa flavored 1/2 gallon, a Touchdown Sundae 1/2 gallon (vanilla ice cream with fudge swirls and caramel filled footballs), and then the hubby grabbed triple chocolate peanut butter something or other. My comment to him was that I must be PMSing because I wanted all of these sweets! Came home and low and behold, my monthly visitor made its arrival. Now I have all of these crazy, amazing desserts in my house and I am scared to go in the kitchen. Dummy.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
With me being the only one working in my house, I better get selling more lotions, potions and toys to cover that! Who wants to have a party? ;-)
Monday, January 16, 2012
Today I was craving hummus. My PIC and I walked across the street and to the Greek food place. I should have only brought enough money for the hummus, but I didn't, so I proceeded to order half of the menu. Okay, not quite, but I got a gyro as well. It was so good that I ate half of it. OVER half!! Ugh. I was so full but kept stuffing my freaking face because it tasted so good. Then I ate 2 pieces (well, 1 whole piece) of pita with hummus and it happened. STUCK!! Painfully stuck at that. My PIC is used to seeing my "stuck face" but others haven't really had the pleasure. It is funny to see them react to my face and now 2 others know "the look."
Tomorrow I have an appt at my surgeon's office and am really mad that I ate the way I did because I wanted a spectacular number on the scale. Now I will have to settle for mediocre. Dummy.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
It was a beautiful morning on the scale!!! 208.5!!!! Holy crap! That is 4 lbs in a week....and 11 lbs since the beginning of the year. I am only 38 lbs from my 1st goal weight!!! I am so close to being under 200 I can literally taste it, and it is so so sweet. Working the band baby.
I tossed another pair of my size 18's into the "too big" pile last night. It is funny that some are enormous while others still kind of fit. I am pretty much wearing my 16's full time now and that is an ego booster for me. I know I need to get some good use out of them since I bought so many, but I can't help but wish I was closer to getting into some 14's. I won't even torture myself with trying on any 14's until after I get below 200, but I remember that was the size I wore back when my husband and I met.
With cleaning out my closet once a month, I am thinking of putting some clothing options on here for people who may be looking for in-between sizes but can't afford to go shopping. If you would be interested in something like that, please let me know. I will keep you posted.
I have a friend who is getting married next month so I decided to go ahead and splurge on getting a new dress for that event. Good thing Ross is less than a mile from my house and they have great deals on dresses :-)
Hope you have a fantastic Friday!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
With her getting surgery today, and she and I emailing each other last night, I was reflecting on how I felt the night before LB Day (Lap Band Day) and decided to look back at what I looked like the night before my surgery. I posted the pictures my mom took of me on the side of my blog. Holy shit. I need those to be there as a constant reminder of where I was and where I now am. Now, I will sit and bash my body day after day, but I have lost 65 lbs. I was heavier than I have EVER been when I finally made the decision to have surgery. 275 lbs is no laughing matter. Was I happy? Yes, but I was killing myself with food. I looked at the pictures and compared them to Saturday's pictures. I told my husband that I know he really does love me. When he asked where that came from, I responded that I can't believe he loved me when I was so heavy and obviously didn't love myself. I weigh less now than I did when we got married, but am 20 lbs away from what I weighed when we first met. How did I gain 85 lbs in 5 years? I can't even blame it on baby weight! I can make excuse after excuse, but no more. I am done with the excuses. Focus on the future baby.
Monday, January 9, 2012
But the real reason I posted was to talk about portions. No, I did not eat all of this. I had 2 pita slices with about 3 tsp of the hummus and I was full. I mean FULL. This is a strange occurrence for me. I am filling up with practically nothing now. It is AMAZING!!! Yesterday at breakfast (at 8:30) I had 1 slice of bacon, 1/4 of a biscuit with gravy and 1/2 of the egg from my eggs benedict. Full. I couldn't eat again until 3:00. I don't know if this is because of being sick or if I am finally listening to my body and not pushing it, but I am loving every minute of it. However, yesterday at breakfast I wanted so badly to be able to finish eating everything because it was so good. I was sad/upset because I was full. My head wanted more but my body said "I don't think so." Me thinks I have some work to do on my "dependence" of food. Time to start looking at it as fuel as opposed to how good something is. Only question is, how long will that take?
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Tonight is a night I stay at my mom's and I brought my exercise clothes. She doesn't have a Wii and I still haven't broken out my Zumba at home yet (husband has taken to the couch for his sick bed and heaven forbid a sick man do anything but lay on the couch) so I will be walking on the treadmill and will be working on her Ab Glider. That thing ROCKS! I really need to be doing abs because I am getting some hanging happening there. Not pretty...and I can't wear jeans without the muffin top happening, so I need to get that area tightened up. It's not terribly bad but bad enough that I am uncomfortable with it showing through my cute new clothes. Example, my outfit that I wore yesterday. I felt really cute and took a photo but then I started critiquing it and finding fault everywhere. I thought my belly bulged and felt a little like a lard. However, I was excited to be wearing a white sweater which is something I would NEVER have considered doing a year ago. A white sweater on a 275 lb body where most of the weight was carried in my upper body. Umm no. I would have looked and felt 3 times bigger than I was. I was the girl who always wore black or dark tops to camouflage my excess weight. But, here is my cute outfit from yesterday...can't wait for the sweater to hang on me! (I don't usually do the self photo in the bathroom mirror, but no one was around to take my picture) :-)
Monday, January 2, 2012
I am really looking forward to starting this fun activity. The guy at the store asked me today if I wanted Zumba 1 or Zumba 2 and my response was, I want the one that is on sale. Hopefully I didn't need to know 1 before jumping into 2. Guess I will find out! I figure that I can get started on doing Zumba without having to worry about overcrowded classes at the gym and learn some of the steps so I don't look like a complete boob when I do attend my first class. I hope it is as much fun as everyone says it is! I will just have to kick the husband and son out of the family room while I do it, at least until I look cute doing it. I told my hubby that he should do it with me and that suggestion was met with the "are you effing kidding me?" look.
Pressure Canner & Cooker!!
Most of those who know me know that I am very much into food storage. It's not just for Mormons ;-) We started doing food storage about 2 1/2 yrs ago when I was doing my business solely and we had to watch our spending while I did my parties and played domestic goddess. Now that I have gotten the band, I want to be more proactive in what we have to eat when times get tough. A lot of food storage consists of potatoes, pasta, rice and beans (which is very difficult if not impossible for me to eat) so I need to ensure that I can actually consume what we have without getting stuck every 20 seconds. I cannot WAIT to try canning for the first time. Oh the possibilities. My MIL usually has to do our canning for us but now I will be able to do it myself. We can meats (lots of chicken and now fish) and I am really excited to be able to can fresh veggies. I am signing up for Bountiful.Baskets Co-op for produce, veggies and other goodies that they offer each week. Not only will we be helping out local farmers, but I will be able to have healthy options available for us that I can eat. There are so many things to learn to make now....salsa & jam are going to be fun! While I used to make fun of those who had food storage in their homes, I am very grateful that we had ours when my husband was discharged from the AF back in Sept. He didn't receive his final paycheck for 5 weeks so we relied upon that when there wasn't extra money to be spent on food. I'm not one to lecture, but it is something to consider doing for yourself, just in case! With him still being out of work, we still use it every now and then. We have gotten creative with meal planning, that's for sure!
If you are familiar with canning, please share your favorite recipes and websites that you use for your own items! I can use all the help I can get. Before I know it I will be Zumbaing in my kitchen while canning. Ha! That will be a sight to see!
I got these from my surgeon's office and am completely obsessed with them. There are 3 flavors that I have tried and the Orange Peach is my favorite, but Berry Pomegranate and Orange Berry are good too. So yummy and no nasty aftertaste, so if you can find them, I would highly recommend them.
I put a pork loin in the crock pot for pulled pork sandwiches for dinner (although mine will be simply the pulled pork) and I am thinking I might brave taking the lunatic puppy out for a walk. My husband and son are both sick so I am trying to stay away from them as much as possible to avoid getting it myself. I know, Wife and Mom of the Year. But hey, what good am I to them if I get sick?!
I did our menu for the week and we will be sticking to it. We fell back into eating out more even though money is tight...that doesn't help the weight loss process. I am also going to be freezing meals again that are pre-weighed so I don't have my portion issues that I have been having. 4 oz, no more!! Eating more than that has gotten me into this predicament and it needs to stop. I am full, but the food tastes so good that I don't want to stop eating it. Sound familiar? Story of a LOT of our lives. No more...2012 is the year for me to hit my goal weight and if I plan for that to happen by my 1 year bandiversary, I have to keep myself in check.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2011 was a great year but man did it go fast!! I don't know if it is because I was so busy, or because so many things happened, but it seems like it was only 6 months long. I am not one for making resolutions because, to be completely honest, I wouldn't keep them! However, I did a LOT of reflecting on the past year and I see why it went by so fast. I was very busy with work and my business, we were waiting for 9 months for the inevitable to happen with regards to my husband being discharged from the Air Force, we had many people we love who lost loved ones and lost 2 grandparents ourselves, I had my surgery, my son started high school, and probably the biggest thing was our decision to leave Las Vegas and move to the mountains of Arizona and all of the planning that goes along with that.
I am looking very much for what 2012 brings us. A new career for my husband, a new home for our family, a new community to move to, a new school for our son, a new group a friends to be made, a new opportunity to expand my business in a new area and new adventures for all of us!!
I will say that I am making a concerted effort with my husband to get to the gym at least 3 times a week. I also want to try something new at least once a month (like Zumba, Body Pump, swimming classes, etc) because I get bored with workouts. That may be challenging with, #1 staying at my mom's house 2 nights a week, #2 the fact that we like to go to the gym super early, and #3 the gym will be PACKED with all those folks who have losing weight on their resolution list, so it will suck getting there in the evenings when classes take place for at least 2 months. I am considering buying a Zumba DVD that I can just do at home, so if you have one that you recommend, please let me know!
I will also try to post on a more regular basis on my blog. It was terribly difficult with the holidays and everything that you have to do during that time. But now we are done with all of that and we can focus on the future!